A few days before I found out I was pregnant I threw up after dinner. It was the first time in years that I had gotten sick, so I thought it was super weird. Little did I know how much that was going to become a daily part of my life in the next few months.
My first eightish weeks of pregnancy were pretty uneventful. I felt a little tired but nothing crazy. Then all of a sudden everything made me sick to my stomach, and then everything made me barf. Awesome. It became necessary for me to know where the closest bathroom or garbage can was at all times – oh yeah, because “morning sickness” is the worst name for how I felt. I was getting sick probably 4-5 times a day, all day. At work I kept mints and a sleeve of saltines open at my desk in hopes that I could put off my nausea a little longer before having to hit the bathroom again. At home I sat in front of the blandest meals Kris could think of and pathetically ate two or three bites. I puked outside walking to my car, pulled over on my way home and puked on the side of the road, you name it.
Morning sickness took over my life. I was so sleepy and sick all the time that I would come home from work and just crawl into bed, so my poor husband never saw me anymore. By the way, he was a rockstar throughout this whole thing and kept bringing home different snacks and drinks for me to try to see if it agreed with my stomach. I still wasn’t able to really eat anything and lost 10 lbs in a month, which is really not good when you’re pregnant. At my 12 week appointment my doctor asked me how I was feeling and when I responded “okay, I guess” Kris jumped in with “no you’re not!!” Somehow I had convinced myself that not being able to eat and throwing up all the time was totally normal. News flash, it’s not. My doctor said I should try taking Unisom twice a day to try to lessen my symptoms. Super weird, right? I would think that a sleeping pill would be the last thing that I should be taking while pregnant. But I tried it and it really worked! I mean, I was still getting sick daily but only 2 or so times a day and I was able to eat real meals again – so that was a win in my book! Not only that, I was able to get a little energy back so I wasn’t acting like such a zombie all the time and Kris and I could actually spend time together again. Lesson learned: talk to your doctor if you’re feeling terrible! (I mean obviously, but we as women just brush off a lot of things as “fine” when it’s not…so talk to your care team!)
While most women have morning sickness subside after the first few months of pregnancy, I am one of the lucky ones who was sick during my whole pregnancy. Woo! What got me through? Tons of saltines, making sure I ate right away when I woke up, these lozenges called Preggie Pop Drops, and Kris’ patience. He really was an amazing partner and so understanding when I was feeling like garbage. He brought me water, made sure I was at least trying to eat, and always let me complain (this last one is particularly important).
Being sick for so long was really tough, and made it hard for me to believe in the “magic of pregnancy” (that’s bullshit, I didn’t enjoy being pregnant at all in the first two trimesters), but it was absolutely worth it for my adorable little guy! (Although I can’t promise I won’t hold it over his head when he’s driving me crazy later…)